Thursday, November 17, 2005
Lonely but never alone. i may feel lonely. but the truth is that i'm never alone. how's my realationship with you? I always break your heart. I'm sorry. God. the feeling is terrible. i don know how to describe. but i know that you are always near. You are as
near as my heart desire you to. I desire you to be closer to me each day. Each day I wake, I find you are near.
I have definitely been a bad daughter to my parents. God. I ask for patience. I ask for love. Love them, be patient towards them. Was thinking of what Shirley says during one of the clm. No more double life!
Consistent lifestyle. Treat my parents as how i would treat my shepherd, my leaders. They are leaders that God placed over me in my family.
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God is a God of second chance " wow. hehe. This sentence assured me alot. Thank God. Your grace is abundant. But i should never take it for granted. never. Arghh. God.
I'm really nothing. I can't do this, I can't do that. Everytime. I really prepared what i'm gonna say. But because I'm nervous, I won't know how to express myself. Everytime, i will feel so disappointed with myself. I don't know anything.
I'm really nothing. But you make me into something. Undeserved of your love. really. i'm really unworthy. But you still love me. Thanks :)) I can't love God the way he love me but I can love him to my best. He wants my whole heart.
Have taken quite alot of break le. Spend quite alot of time with God. Very refreshed! Now is the time for
SOW, fasting and dicipleship. whee~ I'm excited! Pray tt this holiday will be fruitful. There's only two possibilities during holiday. Either you grow or not. I'm gonna grow! ppl! Grow together with me!
I miss
Huishi! my spiritual buddy.
Adores my
blog music.