why do humans only treasure things after they lost them? mayb not everyone but at least i am like that. i have never really know how to treasure and cherish them until when i lost both of them.

i see things the clearest only in my memories. in my memories, there are many times when i could have done so much for them. i could have shown my love more to them. i could have done so so much more. i'm everything of their life. i just have to do something small, they will be so happy. but what can i do now? i cannot change anything. i cannot treat them better now. i cannot buy gifts to surprize them anymore. i cannot do anything now without them by my side.

something is being teared away from my heart. and it's really a big and deep piece. two ppl so close to my heart being taken away from me. i dont know where am i going or what am i suppose to do. i'm lost. really lost.

papa and mummy. girlgirl really misses you alot. how are both of you? girlgirl needs both of you now.