it hurts alot of times. really. the pains and all the unanswered questions in my heart.
whenever i'm alone and just dwell in sorrows, God is looking at me with his tearful eyes. he wants to say "my child, i can heal all your hurts and pains. i can answer you all the questions you have in your heart. i can be your refuge. But, why won't you look to me?"

ya. why won't i look to him? whenever problems arise, i'll just cooped myself up. thinking that maybe after some time everything will be alright. so rubbish. what's wrong with me? don suppress your emotion. confess it. confess it to God.

Questioning myself what is the thing that could make give up my relationship with God. -18 mins later- i can't think of any. God has rooted himself in my heart. is so deep that i know if i try to pull it away. i will be injured. i'll be hurt.

even when i was spiritually low, i still cannot live a day without him. a day without him is like a dream. i have not really live that day. oh God. root yourself deeper in me.

I'm excited! really excited. excited of seeing God's power fall. His spirit rain down from heaven and straight into my heart. into every place i went. His love will overflow in me and in everyone i meet! so exciting! the thought of God's presence raining down is like so wow.

i cannot be so selfish. think of all the ppl. is not all about me me me. God promise me " whatever i lose on earth for him he will give me back in heaven"

rachel. do what God has plan for you to do in the lifetime. God will fulfill all the promises he has for me. i know and believe in it. i want to share the love story to ppl now!

my shangri-la can wait for me. God has already prepare it in heaven for me. by then, i can spend a peaceful and simple life with God in my shangri-la, my beautiful place.