can i sleep. fall into a deep sleep in my own world. why must it be so complicated. the truth hurts but the truth sets me free. this truth that i just know hurts so much. haha. so actually this 1 year plus everything means nothing. haha. nothing.

the past still lingers. the familar songs, the familar places and the familar memories. how am i suppose to forget? they mean so much to me. two things that you can never take away from is God and my memories.

God.

all i want is you. but why is this world so complicated? why am i so complicated. i just want to be the simple daughter you had last time. the always so joyful girl. the daughter whose mind is full of ways to please you. the daughter who pleased you. am i pleasing you now? my thoughts don. my actions don. i have broken your heart so many times. i don deserve anything from you. not even your grace. but why? why are you such a loving God? this is all that push me on. i matter so much to you. you mean so much to me.

i understand. i really do understand everything. but i just can't overcome it emotionally.
give me some time. people says that time can heal everything. but without God, how are they suppose to get healed. give me some time, God can heal me.

thanks dehui. that sms mean so much to me. really. at least i know that other than God. there's someone so so so concern about me. thanks.

don worry people. i'm ok. even at the worst situation, i know God is with me. moreover, this is not the worst situation. is just something personal. and when i overcome it. is gonna be such a big breakthrough. hehe! yea.

running away.