is 3 am. i really cant get to sleep.
i miss the nights when my mummy will force me to sleep. i miss the nights when she will sneak into my room to sleep with me cause she is afraid of alone. i always laugh at her when she sneaks into my room to sleep with me. her presence is so real then. her body is warm then. but now i'm the one afraid of alone. i'm the one who longs to see her sneak in. that big bed seems so empty. i yearn to see that familar person again. if i have a chance again, i will welcome her to share the bed with me.
God.
i might not know the reasons you take her away. but you know the results if you take her away. i am like an empty shell now. emptiness. i miss her so so much God. the pain is so real in my heart. the sour feeling in my heart. God.
i will dream of her every night. every night. i will dream tt she was well and doing life with me like before. but when i wake up. everything returns to normal. reality came slapping into my face. the kind of pain is terrible. really terrible.
MUMMY! do you know that i'm looking for you? can you hear me crying out out for you? can you come back to my side. dont leave me. please... i really miss you.
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