i thought i will be fine. or rather i feel fine. until i saw the car accident. i saw a car knocked into a girl. i was so scared. is so scary when i saw the impact when the car knocked into the girl. my mind went blank when i saw the whole thing. my heart nearly dropped out, the first thought that came into my mind is that i got to tell my mother.

but i realize she can no longer listen to me. i really miss her. i really miss her listening ears. her caring eyes. i feel so terrible now. i hope that i can share with her what i had seen, what i'm feeling now. i'm scared to sleep on the big bed alone. i need her.

my heart is really painful. so painful. if my mummy sees me crying now. she will come and hug me. that hug is the cure. i need that hug now. i need that patting to pat me to sleep.

mummy. come back. come back. please. girlgirl beg you.