it has always been i leave her side. she has never left my side before.

i always leave her side, like gg mission trip, camp or stayingover at ppl's hse. but she always seems to remains at where she is waiting for me. she is always there. when i come back frm camp, i know she will be there. when i came back frm anywhere, i know she will be there.

tml is camp already. where is the excitement i always i have? i remember everytime before camp will be her nagging, forcing me to pack my bag or rather helping me to pack my bag. everytime before i leave the camp, she will ensure i bring everything. everytime, i will tell her not to miss me, i'll be back soon. i'll tell her not to think of me when she sleeps alone on the bed. but there will be no one for me to say to when i leave for camp later. there will be no one for me to call when i'm in camp.

i'm locked in past where there is my mummy and me. dont want to get out.