mayb all along i'm a selfish girl. but this time i really wish that the decision i make is for the good of everyone.

i got alot of reasons of wanting to move. i know there are pros and cons but i really want to learn to be independent. i dont wish to be a burden to anyone anymore. i really dont like to go back to a home where i know is not my home and is not my family. i would rather stay alone.

it is really painful for me to survive thru every loong bus ride. the kind of thoughts that went thru me is really painful and terrible. after the long tiring ride/day. what i really want to see my dear parents coming to take care of me. but when i go back to that "not suppose to be my home" home. i really feels terrible. i hope that both of them is waiting for me to be home. i hope that they are still w me...

papa and mummy, teach girlgirl what to do. if you guys are still here, how different would things be. at least i got a complete family and home. at least rachel's life got two loved ones w her.

when can i see you both again? this is really not the world girlgirl wants to be. God, use me to the fullest. dont ever make my life feels so meaningless.