without them in my life, rachel knows that she got to be stronger.

hate to see furneral and ambulance. the pain will come again.

for the past weeks, other than occupying myself, i will dream. dream really makes them so near to me again. becaus in reality they are far from me. but in dreams, they belong to me again.

many often when i'm on bus, i'll will close my eyes. hoping that everything that has happen for e past one year is only a dream. hoping that when i open my eyes, things is back to the time when my parents were still with me. when i'm still a happy girl. but when i opened my eyes, my heart sank. because i know i got to be stronger.

mummy and papa. girlgirl really really misses you. but.. both if you are so far away. hope that both of you will say girlgirl is a strong girl when i see you both again.