i dont wish to remember anything.
i dont wish to recall anything.

one year. dont know how did i survive this one year. time just pass so quickly. in certain sense, i dont wish time to pass so fast. because i want my memories of her to be so real n deep in my heart. time will wash away many things. but i'm trying very hard. i'm trying very hard to keep everything as close n as deep as possible.

mummy, i just want to tell you
that girgirl loves you.
girlgirl really really loves you. no matter what happen, i wont n i dont want to forget you.
you have given to much to me. you have left something so deep n pain yet happy in my heart.
no one. nothing can take them away.


i really miss you, so much. i feel like hugging you. i feel like seeing you by my side. i miss calling out the word "mummy". i miss hearing your voice. i miss having dinner with you. i miss seeing ur angry face. i miss holding ur hands and be like a little kid. i miss sharing w you my school life, my church life. i miss seeing ur amused face when i tell you. i miss lying on ur lap n cry when i'm sad. i miss knowing that you are e one who truly understands and believe me.

i dont want to lose you. the pain is still there. the pain is still real. mummy. girlgirl really really loves you and girlgirl really dont wish to lose you.

i'm afraid of this day to come become it will prove that everything is a reality. i dont know how to face you two. i dont have the courage to visit you two. because at that place i know i lost both of you.

时间可能会冲淡我的伤痛
可是我不会因为时间而把你忘记。

i lost you. mummy~ girlgirl has never move from where you left me. but i couldnt find you anymore. i love you. i really really love you. i will do anything to just keep you deep and real in my heart. really.