i walked with my mummy till the very end of her ife. but i didnt walk with my papa. he was alone...

been sleeping for e past week. because i believe i can see them in my sleep. in my dreams. the happy feeling i got when i dream of them. i feel that they are so close to me. things are like in the past. i am so so so happy. my heart can jump out of joy. but for e past few days, i didnt. so i decided to lie in bed 2 hours early. i will just think of them till i sleep. bt it didnt work. how? the happy feeling is gone.

my emotions and mind is in a turmoil. can all these be just a bad dream? let me wake up from this bad dream. amen. i'm too tired to continue in this dream.

papa and mummy. can you all come back and be with girlgirl again. i love both of you more.