there's only 2 choices you can make when you face problems right. either you kill yourself then you will never face it again or you grit your teeth and continue on.

from my mummy's life, i know she has chosen the second option. to be strong and continue on.

so many things have happen in her life. she used to be so rich and have everything she wanted. but soon she became bankrupt then she got cancer. but she still continue to trust God. even when she was going through chemo, she still went to work as usual. she still continue to look after the family. she still continue to take care of my father and taking up the role of a father in my life.

both of us became each other's support. she was my support when i faces problems in ministry, with friends or studies. i was her support when she felt tired, dissapointed and angry.

until when her cancer relapse again. i saw the sadness in her eyes. i still remember clearly the tears from her eyes when she was told that her cancer has a relapse. then when she was move from a hospital to a hospice. when i saw her getting thinner and thinner. when i saw her slowly fading away. i was there. i was there to see the whole process of her fading away........

it was painful. i know she is suffering. but when i see her suffer, i always ask God, if i were the one who was lying on the bed. mayb it will be better since i'm not very afraid of pain. at that point of time, i felt so useless.

if there were to be a best of the best in heaven. God. i believe with all my heart that you will give her "the strongest woman of God"

God. you loves her more than me. though i love her, but i know i can never love her to how you love her. muumy. wait for me at the end with God.