didnt go to school. excuse being i need extra time to study. but i know that's not the case. this few months, i've been trying to push everything aside to the back of my head by ministry and studies. i have been so occupied that i dont even have time to care about the things at the back of my side. but now i feel so tired. so so tired. i just need a day w myself, w my memories and w God.

i really really miss them. memories is a really ironic thing. i thank God that i have the memories of them but sometime all the memories make me wanna to have more. i cannot describe how much i miss them. i really want my closest loved ones to be back w me. i really want to have my happy family w papa and mummy again. i cannot find that smile again.

really wonder how many of this kind of days i got to spent before before i can see them again. before i can find that "xin fu" feeling again. can parents day dont come? but on the other thought, someow i'm used to the feelingof lonely. God. i need you.

i'm tired. mummy papa, girlgirl is tired.