rachel really misses them. i really wish to see them and touch them and hear them again. all i left is only memories of them. humans are forgetful beings, i'm really afraid what if i forget them. i dont want. i really dont want.

this exam period is really tough. it makes me miss them even more. they are always there for me. i dont wish to go thru this exam period without them. is really tough. i need their support. i need their caring concern when i burn midnight oil. i need them to jiayou me. i really really need them.

when my mummy reach the last stage of her life. i was having my end year exam, she couldnt really remembers anyone or really knows anything. but this particular night when i'm studying. i can remember she said this "girl you studying ar, dont study till too late. all e best" this was one of her most clear consious speech then. i know she loves me. i know she cares for me.

but when things happened, it means it happened. nothing i can feel or do will reverse anything. mummy papa, girlgirl loves you. girlgirl really really misses you two.

too used to darkness without them in my life.