i love easter. i love God.

what will happen if easter never happen. this is the question i have been asking myself. i think i can just go and die. the reason why i try to stand up and continue to live on is because i believe the reality of easter, because i believe i can see papa and mummy again and i got to account to them my life. but if easter never happen, it means that papa mummy died and i will never ever see them again. i can just go and die if it is that way.

i want to post this when i am in the "good" times or rather when i'm rational. i dont know when i will feel bad.

thank God for Easter.

as i was in front of my parents' niche, i really wonder how are they doing. tears rolled down as i talked to them. tears rolled down as i think of their faces. when i imagine their facial expressions when i said some stuffs. i really really really miss them. it really feels lonely without them in my life. i love them. i miss them. how is my dear papa and mummy now? will they miss me like how i miss them? i think they will cause i'm their "baobei girlgirl"